It all began on a dark and stormy night… well, not a real storm, it wasn’t of the lightning and thunder variety, it was in my mind as I lay tossing and turning at 2:00 am with a darkness in my spirit and turbulent thoughts that I had become enslaved by obesity and procrastination. I was physically, mentally, and emotionally exhausted and afraid that I had lost the will to battle my way back to health and wellness. Where do you turn for power and inspiration, the motivation to forge a new path to freedom in the midst of feeling defeated by life? I cried out to the only true source of strength I have ever known and started to pray. I cried out to the One who is bigger than all my frustration and doubt, my self loathing and anger, my anxiety and care and in loving mercy I heard His voice say, “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30, NIV
I was loosing the battle because I was trusting in my strength alone. I have trusted God to help me with so many things but for some reason felt my weight was a battle I had to conquer on my own. The thing is, I was loosing big time, and not just the battle but I felt I had lost the war. I had successfully lost weight only to gain it back, everything I had lost and then some. Like many of you in the same situation, I felt defeated. I began to search the scriptures for strength to face the battle and found this verse:
For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline.
2 Timothy 1:7,NIV
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 2 Corinthians 12:I0, NIV
I know I must set my faith in this area of my life on the One who is able to lead me to victory. I have to use the tools (aka weapons) He is placing before me. He is equipping me with expert medical advice and the continuing love and support of family and friends. My friend, Linda, has been a constant blessing to me, and if you will continue to indulge my battle analogy, trust me when I say we have been in the trenches together. I am so thankful she’s always got my back!
I am sharing my war story here on July 4th, ready for freedom to ring with the goal to help anyone fighting for health and wellness beside me. Let’s suit up, the battle belongs to the Lord!